People in our society struggle to find love. Finding love can be fun, however painful, lengthy, and fearful in the chance of denial and desertion. Sometimes, someone’s view of affection and love can vary depending on the person. An example of this, per say, is like an individual wanting attention every second of every minute of every hour, while on the other hand a different individual may not like the attention and affection, and may prefer a type of love that is more subtle. J.D. Salinger, the author of world-wide famous book Catcher in the Rye, depicts this through the first person view of a character struggling to find the love he desperately needs and deserves.Holden Caulfield, the main character in Salinger’s famous book, is a perfect example someone looking for love and affection throughout the story and all of his life, but cannot seem to connect with the outside world. A quote stated in CliffNotes confirms that, “He is simply expressing an innocence incapable of genuine hatred. Holden does not suffer from the inability to love, but does despair of finding a place to bestow his love” (Heiserman and Miller p. 30). Holden Caulfield desires to spread and receive love from his peers and other people. Caulfield’s mission is to do good and spread positivity, but in most cases he is taken the wrong way.An idea that Holden has that may contradict what others think is the topic of adulthood. While most may think adulthood is a big step in life to pursue dreams and grow in maturity as a person, Holden thinks that adulthood is full of “phoniness” and is just a showing of fake maturity. As titled, he wants to be a catcher in the rye, a metaphor for saving children from falling into the real world of adulthood, and saving them from their destiny which is the phoniness that lies ahead of them. However, he sadly realizes later that a soul full of impurities is hard to find, because while visiting Phoebe’s school, “…I saw something that drove me crazy. Somebody’d written ‘Fuck You’ on the wall. It drove me damn near crazy. I thought how Phoebe and all the other kids would see it, and how they’d wonder what the hell it meant, and then finally some dirt kid would tell them-all cockeyed, naturally-what it meant, and how they’d all think about it and maybe even worry about it for a couple of days” (Salinger p. 201). He vigorously attempts to rub off the vulgar word, in which he is successful in doing so. Although scared for the children’s safety in innocence, the infamous graffiti, and more to come, will help Caulfield come to his realizations at the end.Near the end of the narrative, Holden goes to the museum, where he plans to meet Phoebe. He is quickly hit with the realization that he cannot just rub all problems away. Engraved in a monument is the same words as previously mentioned, ‘Fuck You’, meaning it cannot be rubbed off by Holden. Enraged as expected, Caulfield reflects by saying, “That’s the whole trouble. You can’t ever find a place that’s nice and peaceful, because there isn’t any. You may think there is but once you get there, when you’re not looking, somebody’ll sneak up and write ‘Fuck You’ right under your nose” (Salinger p. 203). This is a big deal for Holden, because the museum, which to him is supposed to be a pure and glorified place, is engrossed by disturbing and disgusting graffiti. This point in the story, with Holden feeling very sick about the situation, is the main character’s realization and turning point. He figures out that he cannot save everyone from every bad thing in the world, and trying to save the youth from growing up is pointless.After meeting up with Phoebe, he states that he is not leaving for the west anymore and takes her to the carousel. An usual overprotective Holden states his worries while she is on the ride, but does not take action which shows his new thinking and realization of the world. He describes that “All the kids kept trying to grab for the gold ring, and so was old Phoebe, and I was sort of afraid she might fall off the goddam horse, but I didn’t say anything or do anything. The thing with kids is, if they want to grab for the gold ring, you have to let them do it, and not say anything. If they fall off, they fall off, but it’s bad if you say anything to them” (Salinger 211). Holden comes full circle and decides to let Phoebe try to achieve what she desires. Although he could save her from experiencing possible pain in failure, he decides to let her be free, which shows he is allowing her to grow up and experience life the way that it should be experienced.Holden’s true reason for his struggles of finding love from the people around him is the fact that he did not fully fall off the cliff yet himself. He lived in his own fantasy world, where he thought he would be able to save children from falling into the pitiful thing called adulthood. His immaturity in some cases is what drove people away from giving him the love he desperately desired. Although he does have his realization of the real world, it does deteriorate him as he is seen at the end of the book in a psychiatric ward in California. This leads anyone witnessing this story to believe that he will never fully fall down the cliff, thus causing his life to go downhill. Hopefully, things will be on the up and up for the protagonist and he finds the love he wants. Nonetheless, it may possibly take an abundance of time, as love can be a painful, fearful, and lengthy process with the possibilities of rejection and abandonment.Works CitedSalinger, J.D. The Catcher In The Rye. Boston: Little, Brown and Company, 1951.Kaplan, Robert B. Cliff’s Notes: Catcher In The Rye. Lincoln: Cliff’s Notes, Inc., 1999.